So, my granma had a stroke today and its weird. cuz i feel like i shoul be crying cuz thats what i do when i get upset. but i'm not. i'm upset, but its not affecting me like i think it should be. its weird.

Love.

Your Own Disaster
      - Taking Back Sunday

Love.

I'm listening to country music.... how odd is that?

What if i don't make a decision? what if i just force them away? what if i let them hurt me instead? what if i dont ever decide to give anyone up? Can things just work themselves out for me this one time? maybe? So ive decided.
I wont decide. I wont hurt anyone but me.
Sound good?

Make one girl give up on boys, or one girl give up on love? what would you do?

This was a horrible week for my confidence level. This was a horrible week all together. I said was  done quitting. I lied. I said i was going to fix things. I lied. I said a lot of things. but i guess you can call me a liar. She is prettier, and smarter, and i knew better than to attempt it.

Word to the wise: don't tell her you love her, after you're done breaking her heart.

maybe i shouldn't give up on the world. Maybe i should just give up on love.